New Beginnings Month 1

Like the title says I am one month in. Actually, more like  6 weeks and have established a bit of a routine. I am learning...some things the hard way, but learning all the same. I am friendly with everyone I meet and am a little slow at learning who I should befriend and thiset hat I should stay away from. Mary Lou is a good person. She and I hit it off pretty much right away. Her "problem" is that she drinks. So what? A few people have suggested that I stay away from her because of that but I won't. She's been a good friend and I intend to stay friends with her. Shea is another person that I have made good friends with Shea and Mary Lou do not like one another but have promised to be nice to one another for me. I cannot ask for more than that. Both women have thir faults, however both women have been good friends to me. I think it's funny that each one of them tells me that I should stay away from the other one.

My next door neighbor thinks I should stay away from both of them. But Linda stays to herself and does not seem to be really close to anyone. She, too, is a really nice person and is a help to me. I enjoy talking to Joy, too. Joy is older and a hoot. She is in love with my Molly and Molly and I both look forward to seeing her when we go outside to smoke. Cookie is someone else that I have fun talking to and enjoy seeing. Another woman, Mary is really sweet and quiet. She was upset the other day and the poor thing could hardly talk. I felt so bad for her

Then there are the guys around here. There's Charlie, the guy withh one leg. He is so sweet and he and Mary Lou have become great friends. Warren is also a member of what I like to call "The Zoo Crew." He is an amazing sweet man who says he used to be really mean but I can't see it.. Richard drives me nuts with his silly ramblings. They tel me that he has Alzheimers but I really think he is just nuts. I pretty much stay away from him. Al lives next door to me and he is another nice guy. He can be loud and obnoxious but I've learned not to talk politics with him. As long as I keep to that, I have no problem with him. Then there is Lionel and I can't figure out f he is playing or if he is making a play for me. He's nice but I can't tell if he is joking or not. And the last thing that I want in here is a relationship with ANY of them. I'd be the talk of the tower and no thank you. I do not want to give these biddies anything at all to talk about. Yep, I also learned who it is that sits in the lobby day after day watching and talking about all the goings on of Westminister Tower 1. 

My routine is beginning to evolve into spending time alone and loving it. I also go outide at least twice a day to walk Molly and touch base with whomever happens to be outside. I have my dr appts once a week and sometimes I have 2 a week. So far I have had no problems getting back and forth, Shea is always wiling to bring me and Mary Lou is generous with lending me her car.

All in all, living at Westminister Towers has been a great experience and  am loving living alone. Being able to do what I want, when I want and to be my own person is everything I thought it as going to be and more. LIFE IS GREAT!

Let your heart be guided by love

Celebrities Who Overdose on Narcotics

I am about sick and tired of the media taking up valuable time eulogizing, praising, and talking about how the world has lost a wonderful talent all too soon. First, let me make it clear that I am a HUGE Elvis Presley fan. And I was as upset as most of the rest of the world at his passing. But lets be clear here. From Elvis to Kuet Cobain, to Michael Jackson, now Prince and countless in between these stars, they were not taken from this world. The assholes killed themselves because they were bigshots who had access to any opiod they wanted because they had these pill pushing doctors on their payroll and were paying them astronomical fees for the prescriptions. In my humble opinion, these pill pushers were not doctors and cared little for the Hipocratic Oath. Remember the first line? I believe it says DO NO HARM. Well, arming these idiots, who have no idea that used improperly, simply to get high is DOING HARM! Terrible harm. Because not only are these people who believe they are entitled because they decided to become public figures then learned it was a little bit tougher than they thought it was going to be, thought they were entitled to these drugs are making it nearly impossible for those people who really do need them just to make it through  a day because they have a REAL illness or disease. What these celebrities and the doctors are doing is what has to be stopped. But taking the drugs from the chronic and intractable pain paitents is NOT the answer. How about we make the celebrities, the doctors, AND the pharmacies that fill them take responsibility for the criminal behavior they are engaging in.If a celebrity is injured he or she must be required to see at lest 3 doctors who agree that the person needs opiods for chronic pain and for how long they need it. A celebrity should not be allowed to have a personal physician on payroll. And if this celebrity is cleared by 3 doctors, chosen randomly by the FDA to need opiod drugs for a certain period of time or even for life they should have to be treated like the ret of us. They need to go to the doctors office once a month and wait for however long it takes (I have waited sometimes 4 to 5 hours to see my doctor...but thats just life in the real world). They should have to have whatever pills left over from the previous month counted and should have to be piss testd like the rest of the world. And they should be required to use the same pharmacy each month so that they are accountable for what they are taking. And they should have to make their meds last 30 days like the rest of us. Oh, they do not have the time for all that? Gee, buddy, my heart just breaks for you. The rest of us have to take time off work or time out of our day to see the doctor, what makes you any better? Oh, right. You can sing, or dance, or act so you do nnot have the time or people might bother you. Again, my heart breaks for you. No one MADE this person go into show business so they could be treated better than us peons. This is a profession that they CHOSE. Cant

Let your heart be guided by love

New Beginnings

When I moved into Westminister the weekend of December 3rd, 2016 it most definitely was a time of new beginnings for me. Not only did I get this apt that I feel like I have been waiting my whole life for, I also began treatmnt with a new roup of doctors for my pain management. I have never seen a group of docors like this. The group is called Dependancy Pain Treatment Centers...DPTC and this is a small group that got together and decided that what the medical community has done to the senior population is just wrong. They have given us...me drugs after drugs and increased the dosage until they decided that they didn't want to treat me any longer so I got the boot and was on my own. So when I found these guys, or rather Faye found them and I watched her. She did a 180 degree change. Ifinally told her that whateer kool-aid she was drining I wantd some of it. So I saw her docs. They are incredble!!! They are taking care of my medication issues and fixing issues in my head. I am already a different person. I am feeling like a different person. Life is GOOD! Life would be perfect if everything were good with Braxton and if things were even a little bit good for him. I don't even know where he is. I have not even spoken to him since I moved back here in April of 2015. I worry about im so much. I should b used to the worry and heartache that my sons have given me thru the years.
And  then there is Cheryl. GOD! How do I handle this? I miss her. Oh how I miss her. ANd I can't get her on the phone, I have lost Butch's number. Mom's number has been disconnected...I Am in LIMBO here! And I need to see my friend.and I can't figure out ow to accomplish this~
Back to the title of this post....New Beginnings...my life really is a series of New Beginnings abd I an FINALLY content and happy. Thank you, Jesus, for getting me to tis place. Amen

Let your heart be guided by love

The Presidential Election

I realize that the election was this past November and it is now January, almost time for Donald Trump to take the Oath of Office. This is not only scarey it's so disappoiting. Yes, I am so very disappointed in the young people of this country. I do blame the 30 somethings and the 20 somethings in this country. This is the generation that is responsible for allowing this man, who is proud of the fact that he thinks women are here only for his sexual amusement. He has no morals and he is proud of that! It makes me sick. And now he refuses to believe that RUSSIA had anything at all do with with hi winning the election. Come on! Somebody worked awfully hard to discredit Hillary at every turn. Someone also worked pretty damn hard to keep that stupid email sever junk in the spotlight.. I am just sick and disgusted oer the entire thing. But what can I do about it? Not one damn thing. So, I have decided to keep an open mind and see what happens. The problem with that is that I am terrified of what can happen. I mean the day after the election, the THE DONALD ame right out and said that he had bitten off more than he could chew. Wonderful! That instilled confidence. Now people are telling me that he is surrounding hiself with great people. I don't know anything about any of them. But I guess I wil see. Because I have no choice. Because it looks like we are about to enter into a dictatorship...WITH A "GREAT WALL" AROUND IT!!! I almost can't wait to see what Congress tells him about bfunding his wall. How can America be a free country with a damn wall around it.
Let's  be clear here. I am so opposed to illegals comig into this country, living here, working here, not paying taxes and making a mess of things. The places they live are basically dumps because they won't clean up the yars and take some pride where they live. They have a sense of entitlement that blows my mind. So that's my feelings on illegal aliens. And while I am on the subject of my feelings, I feel that our President-Elect is an idiot, who is not capeable of doing this job. I predict he will be a one term President. Lord, please! Don't let him make too much of a mess. And let's get someone in there who can fix whatever it is that he destroys.